A Little Bit of Good Luck and Some Bridezilla Moments

So the wedding is in less than a week! I am leaving for the beach on Tuesday, so tomorrow will be my last day in town to tie up loose ends!
I was really scared that I would be the eating a lot because of the stress (which I have been known to do). Instead, the gods have smiled on me and completely destroyed my appetite. Unhealthy, I know, but helpful! When I do manage to choke some food down, I'm trying to make sure that it's really healthy. Yogurt, salads, grilled chicken, etc. I hate keeping a scale, so I'm not sure if I've lost any weight. I feel thinner, but that might just be my head telling me that since I haven't been eating very much. I've also been trying to take Bodie (my dog) on some nice long walks when the weather is nice. In fact, Robert and I went to Weaver Street Market today for brunch and walked around with him. Very nice and relaxing...
So, my bridezilla moment. I went to pick up my dress from my seamstress, who is incredibly talented and wonderful. She made me a gorgeous asymmetrical double french bustle (try saying that 5 times fast!). It was so different that she took a picture of the final product and put it into her "bustle scrapbook". What I wasn't expecting was that there would be a dress hook on the outside of the dress and all the points would be visible when the bustle was let out. So I've got my two sides working over time. The rational side of me says that my dress will be bustled most of the time and that when it's not, no one will be looking at my train hard enough to see those small details. Even if they do, they won't care. The bride part of me is freaking because it doesn't look as beautiful as it did before and I feel like everyone will be staring at those little pieces of thread on the back of my dress. I'm sure there are some of you out there who deal with these split-personalities right before the wedding. Well, my crazy side is a little too powerful at the moment. The dress is being kept where I can't get to it so I don't sit there and stare at the train like an obsessed bride.
I also made a HUGE mistake with the time of the ceremony and just figured it out on Friday. So, I thought that sunset was at 7:15 PM, so I scheduled the ceremony for 7:00 PM so that there would be a nice red sky. Pretty, right? Well, turns out that sunRISE is at 7:15 AM and sunSET is at 6:30 PM. Oh shit. That's exactly what I want, to get married in the dark. At least they won't see the points on my train, right? Well, I'd rather people see the points than get married in the dark and I can't afford outdoor lighting at the last minute. So, it looks like I have to move the ceremony up. So anyone that's been married knows how hard it is to move everything up an hour a week before the wedding. I've been scrambling to get it done and notify all the guests. I think we have all the bases covered, but now that nagging feeling that I'm missing something has gotten that much worse because I've made a last minute change.
Today, my mother has decided that we need to shop for her dress. For the fifth time. She's tried on more dresses than I did when I was looking for my dress. Sweet jebus. It's gonna be a long week...

Steady...

So I've worked out for the past two days and met one of my EA Active goals for the week! Yay! I'm gonna fall short on the calorie goal, but I completed the number of exercises goal. So I guess I'm okay with that for my first week. Next week I'm gonna step it up though.

As promised, I have a picture of FI's ring here. We got it from Overstock during their jewlery sale. Under 60 bucks INCLUDING shipping!! It's made out of tungsten carbide (no resizing and no engraving, kind of like titanium but stronger) and he absolutely loves it. In fact, it's hidden in the house because he kept wearing it out, on his right hand of course. It looks overly shiny in the pic and it's not quite that blinding in person. Also, it is a little bit of a darker shade of silver, which we both think looks a lot better.

I finally got around to writing our ceremony out last night while FI was at work. My favorite part of the whole thing (besides "you may kiss the bride") is the hand ceremony. What a great idea. It's such a beautiful and meaningful ceremony. FI teared up when he read it last night. The only down side to it is that I know it's going to make me tear up or bawl on the day of. Small price to pay, right?
There are tons of versions floating around out there. Here is the version we are strongly considering. We haven't sat down and gone over it together yet, so there is a good chance that there could be some small changes.

Hand Blessing Ceremony -
Emily, please hold Robert’s hands palms up, so you may see the gift that they are to you.
These are the hands of your best friend, young and strong and vibrant with love, that are holding yours on your wedding day, as he promises to passionately love you and cherish you through the years, for a lifetime of happiness.
These are the hands that will work along side yours, as together you build your future, as you laugh and cry, as you share your innermost secrets and dreams.
These are the hands you will someday place with expectant joy upon your stomach, until he too, feels his child stir within you.
These are the hands that look so large and strong, yet will be so gentle as he holds your baby for the first time.
These are the hands that will work long hours for you and your new family.
These are the hands that will countless times wipe the tears from your eyes: tears of sorrow and tears of joy.
These are the hands that will comfort you in illness, and hold you when fear or grief engulfs your heart.
These are the hands that will tenderly lift your chin and brush your cheek as they raise your face to look into his eyes: eyes that are filled completely with his overwhelming love and desire for you.



Optional: At this point while the groom’s hands are still on top, the officiant asks the groom to take a good long look at the position of his hands. As the groom looks down at his hands the officiant says, "Because this is the last time you will have the upper hand".


Robert, please hold Emily’s hands palms up, so you may see the gift that they are to you.
These are the hands of your best friend, smooth, young and carefree, that are holding yours on your wedding day, as she promises to passionately love you and cherish you through the years, for a lifetime of happiness.
These are the hands that will hold each child in tender love, soothing them through illness and hurt, supporting and encouraging them along the way, knowing when it is time to let go.
These are the hands that will massage tension from your neck and back in the evenings after you’ve both had a long hard day.
These are the hands that will hold you tight as you struggle through difficult times.
These are the hands that will comfort you when you are sick, or console you when you are grieving.
These are the hands that will hold you in joy and excitement and hope, each time she tells you that you are to have another child, that together you have created a new life.
These are the hands that will give you support as she encourages you to chase down your dreams.

Together as a team, everything you wish for can be realized.



That part about him holding our first child gives me butterflies every single time!!! And I love that there's a little comic relief thrown in there to! If anyone has any suggestions, let's hear them! I'm always up for new ideas!



So I'm definently getting overwhelmed annd "over" the wedding planning. 75 days away and it feels like it will never get here. The more time that goes by, the more things I want to do and buy. It's very dangerous. Maybe I shold stop surfing the internet so much??? One day at a time....